It Isn’t Easy

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This thing we do here…it isn’t easy.

None of it is.

Fitness?  Not easy.

Maintaining this blog and YouTube channel?  Not easy.

Choosing action over apathy, even when you don’t want to?  Not easy.

We’re in this together, though, and we are slowly becoming exceptional human beings because of it.

I’d like to apologize, personally, for somewhat spotty posts and updates lately, both here and on the YouTube channel.  If you weren’t aware, Be a Game Character is not, in any way, my full time job.  I’ve still got one of those, and put in around 50 hours a week, every week, almost all overnights.  BaGC is, in fact, one of three separate side business ventures I’m involved in.  It is, by far, the one I spend the most time on, with the other two being my dojo, and my landscaping/general labor business.  But even spending the most time on it out of the three, stuff is still rough sometimes.

In addition to this, last year my son, Lucas, was diagnosed with ADHD.  His mom and I split back when he was a little over a year old (it was for the best, it was an extremely toxic relationship,) and at eight years old, juggling parenting, the extra school meetings, counselling, disagreements on parenting with his mother…it amounts to a pretty damn full plate.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being a dad.  LOVE it.  But the outside contributing factors that complicate the whole dad thing definitely make things more difficult than they need to be at times.

I average six hours of sleep per day on my good weeks.  I actually got eight hours yesterday AND today and it’s a bizarre feeling.  You’d think I’d have more energy, but I’m actually feeling a little more fatigued and tired than usual.  It’s like a drug, my body just craves more of it the more that I get.

I am working very, very hard, and I realize that sometimes that may not come across when we miss an update here on the blog, or over on the YouTube channel.

I want to be clear about something, here:
This is not a pity party, I am not looking for you to feel sorry for me, and I do not regret being here, making stuff for you fine folks.

In fact, I love this blog.  I love this little community we have.  I wish it was bigger.  God, I wish so much that I could just walk out of my job tomorrow and work on this full time.  I have so much that I want to bring you, so many awesome ideas and concepts that I think you would just eat up.  Videos, articles, merchandise, ebooks, games…so much.

Even a Supergym.

But unfortunately, I’m not at a point where I can do that.

So why am I telling you all this?  Like I said, I’m not looking for pity.  Instead, I want to make a promise to you.

As hard as I am working right now, I will work harder.
As smart as I am working right now, I will work smarter.

A couple of Mondays and Thursdays over the past two months, we’ve missed updates.  We didn’t have any videos over on the YouTube channel last week or a couple weeks ago.  Poor Unleash the Ultramind hasn’t seen regular updates since a couple weeks after its inception.  Believe me, whenever this happens, it kills me.  I hate missing updates, no matter what the reason is.  Heck, this post is going up a day late, and it’s honestly just a couple hundred words of me venting!

2017 is going to be a year of change.  I will continue to do my best to bring you awesome stuff on a twice-a-week basis here on the blog, and at least twice a week over on YouTube.  I can promise you, that the end of 2017 is going to be a hell of a lot different from the end of 2016.

I am tired.  But I am not done yet. We’ve got a whole lot more to do together, you and I.  Let’s kick some ass.

Live boldly, change the world, and continue to be awesome.

Dan “DaRatmastah” Wallace