Not a loss week for me, mostly for exercise reasons. My caloric requirements are calculated based upon a certain level of exercise, and I honestly didn’t do a very good job sticking to my exercise goals this week. I should have altered my diet to accommodate this, but I kept telling myself, ‘Well I’ll definitely work out tomorrow!” and then end up not doing it.
Sometimes things get in the way of exercise, it just happens. It’s important not to chastise yourself too much for this(I’m not mad at myself or anything, I’ll do better next week), but you do need to make necessary alterations to your diet if you’re looking to lose weight like I am. This week I’m going to stick to my diet goals again, but hop back on the workout train.
Last week’s weigh-in: 202.8
This week’s weigh-in: 203.2
Today I weighed in at 193.4, a big increase in weight. I’ve hit many lows this week. In total I gained 5 pounds back and I’ve never been so mad at myself. After an entire week of berating myself, creating excuses, and even quitting it all boils down to 1 thing. Determination. There are levels of determination, how bad you want to achieve a goal. If you want it now you’re going to work your ass off and not let anything deviate you. If you’re willing to wait a year then you’re going to fall off now and then and take it easy. Bottom line for me is that I made a goal be a certain size/weight by my wedding dress fitting and I’m not going to reach it. Now I’ve come real close to quitting this whole thing. I’ve eaten horrible this week and done nothing to counteract my weekend of bad choices. It was my bridal shower/bachelorette party and I just wanted to have fun and let loose, well I did and I paid the price. I made my choice and I should have sucked it up and got right back on track instead of acting like a spoiled 2 year old. At this point in time I’ve realized I won’t make my wedding goal and that makes me sad, especially when I think about my pictures that I will have for years to come as reminders. But that’s not it for me that’s not my end goal. I will continue to lose weight after my wedding and when I look how I want I can look back at those photos and show myself and others how far I went. So I’m not done, I’m not quitting but I seriously need to work on my problems with the hand to mouth part of my life. I need to come to terms with the fact that I don’t get o be like “everyone else” and eat what i want whenever i want. I will have to make painstaking effort every time I want to eat, and if that’s what its going to take then I need to stop crying and get over it already and get on with my life and my goals so I can be who I’ve always wanted to be.
Last Week’s Weigh-in: 188.6
This Week’s Weigh-in: 193.4
That’s all for today! Tomorrow is a video post…maybe even two…
Dan “DaRatmastah” Wallace